I'm Thinking of Ending Things
You will be scared. But you won’t know why…
I’m thinking of ending things. Once this thought arrives, it stays. It’s always there. Always.
Jake and I have a real connection, a rare and intense attachment. What has it been...a month? I’m very attracted to him. Even though he isn’t striking, not really. I’m going to meet his parents for the first time, at the same time as I’m thinking of ending things.
Jake once said, “Sometimes a thought is closer to truth, to reality, than an action. You can say anything, you can do anything, but you can’t fake a thought.”
And here’s what I’m thinking: I don’t want to be here.
I’m thinking of ending things.
Iain Reid explores the depths of the human psyche, questioning consciousness, free will, the value of relationships, fear, and the limitations of solitude. Reminiscent of José Saramago’s early work, Michel Faber’s cult classic Under the Skin, and Lionel Shriver’s We Need to Talk About Kevin, this tense and atmospheric novel will haunt you long after the last page is turned.
“As a reader, it’s impossible to tell if you’re reading a horror story, a love story, or even perhaps a vampire story. This is a genre-twisting novel, and one that is delightfully confusing. It’s smart and it will keep readers guessing until the very end.”- Vancouver Sun
“One of the most anticipated literary thrillers of the season.”- Library Journal
"An existential whodunit."- The Walrus
“This slim first novel packs a big psychological punch with a twisty story line and an ending that will leave readers breathless.”- Library Journal, (Starred Review)
“Smart, dangerous and spooky as hell. Iain Reid takes you on a harrowing road trip that keeps you riveted until the final destination.”- Brian Francis, author of Fruit and Natural Order
“Swift and sharply rendered, I’m Thinking of Ending Things contains psychic traces of Alfred Hitchcock (Vertigo) and Margaret Atwood (Surfacing) for the way that Reid massages facts through the filter of extreme anxiety....An unnerving exploration of identity, regret and longing. Delightfully frightening.”- The Globe and Mail
“Reid fuses suspense with philosophy, psychology, and horror in his unsettling first novel. . . . Capped with an ending that will shock and chill, this twisty tale invites multiple readings.”- Publishers Weekly, (Starred Review)
“One of the best debut novels I’ve ever read. Iain Reid has crafted a tight, ferocious little book, with a persistent tenor of suspense that tightens and mounts toward its visionary, harrowing final pages.”- Scott Heim, author of Mysterious Skin and We Disappear
“Here are some near-certainties about I’m Thinking of Ending Things. Number One: You’re going to read it fast. Over the course of an afternoon or an evening. The momentum is unstoppable—once you start, you won’t be able to stop. And Two: once you race to the end and understand the significance of those final pages, you won’t be able to stop thinking about I’m Thinking of Ending Things. It will find a spot in your heart and head and it will live there—for days, weeks, months, or (in my case) the rest of your life. Yes. It really is that good.”- Craig Davidson (aka Nick Cutter), author of Cataract City and The Deep
“These characters are carefully developed and the plot takes some frightening turns, leading to a shocking ending. The construct of this book is brilliant and unusual and should appeal to fans of psychological thrillers, as well as to some horror fans. A dark and compelling debut novel, it is a most uncomfortable read but utterly unputdownable.”- Booklist
“An addictive metaphysical investigation into the nature of identity, one which seduces and horrifies in equal measure. Reid masterfully explores the perversity of loneliness and somehow also creates a very entertaining thriller. I found myself yelling at the characters to put their feet on the pedal and drive.”- Heather O'Neill, author of Lullabies for Little Criminals and Daydreams of Angels
"I’m thinking I don’t know what to think other than this novel, I’m Thinking of Ending Things is a brilliant, well-constructed Hitchcockian tale with a huge creep factor that will leave you scheduling a manicure for wrecked nails. . . . An unusual and truly unique tale, and the very first thing I thought of after closing this book; a straight-on crazy win."- The Huffington Post
"This book will sink its claws into you and never let go. . . .There isn’t a word out of place in this book, which will fill you with a creeping sense of dread. This psychological thriller will ruin your night, and we mean that as a compliment of the highest order."- Bookish
“In addition to Cronenberg, the ghost of Stephen King hovers over these pages. . . . With its deep enigmas, I’m Thinking of Ending Things is the kind of book that encourages at least one re-reading—and a slow and attentive reading at that. The characters themselves may not have more secrets to reveal, but the dense psychological space they’re traveling through remains as full of dark surprises as your friendly neighborhood black hole.”- Chicago Tribune
“In a novel this engaging, bizarre, and twisted, it shouldn't come as a surprise that its ending is even stranger than the narrative route that takes us there . . . but it does. Reid's novel is a road trip to the heart of creepyness.”- Sjón, author of The Blue Fox, From the Mouth of the Whale, and The Whispering Muse
Ian Reid's novel I'm Thinking of Ending Things is haunting me long long after I've read it- Larry King
“Generally speaking, there are two types of twists characteristic of the contemporary thriller: the twist the reader doesn’t see coming, and the twist the reader senses, but can’t quite put together on their own. The twist in I’m Thinking of Ending Things is of the latter sort, and powerfully so…. It has the sort of ending that will inspire readers to re-read the novel immediately, to try to figure out just how it was done....Reid builds tension with a Hitchcockian intensity. . . .When the pieces fall into place, the novel comes together with a rush."- The Toronto Star
“Reid’s tightly crafted tale toys with the nature of identity and comes by its terror honestly, building a wall of intricately layered psychological torment so impenetrable it's impossible to escape.”- Kirkus Reviews (starred review)
“An ingeniously twisted nightmare road trip through the fragile psyches of two young lovers. My kind of fun!”- Charlie Kaufman, director of Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind and Adaptation
“In this massive departure from his earlier efforts—in both genre and style—Reid has written a superbly crafted psychological thriller, with forays into the metaphysical, which promises to keep you up at night on both counts. . . .The writing is so absorbing you’ll zoom through to see how it ends.”- Maclean's
“An utterly compelling modern Gothic that stakes its claim in the inner precincts of horror. Reid builds tension the way Edgar Allan Poe builds brick walls in his basement.”- Wayne Grady, author of Emancipation Day
“Touching on themes of love, isolation, mental illness and fear, this is a terrifying and totally engrossing psychological thriller.”- Canadian Living Magazine
"A deviously smart, suspenseful, intense, and truly haunting book with a fuse long and masterfully laid....[Reid has] found a way to make us feel old fears fresh again.”- The Los Angeles Review of Books